I don't have a story like that.
Like many students at CBU, I grew up in a christian household. I will admit however, there was a struggle between denominations. My mom is non- denominational, my dad is an atheist (they are divorced), my step-dad was catholic at the time, my mom's parents are baptist, and my dad's parents are seventh day adventist. Im pretty sure that covers the entire spectrum of christianity.
Anyway, regardless of the church that I went to I did go to church every sunday, and I sort of always considered myself to be a christian- even if I did not have a very good handle on what exactly that meant.
So I accepted Jesus into my heart. A lot. I mean, I must have accepted him into my heart like five hundred times during my childhood. The sunday school teachers always had these compelling speeches making me want to be a christian. Since I did not have a "home" church, these were usually different people. All of them made me feel likeI was an awful sinner and I needed Jesus. It sounded like a good deal to me. I guess I did not have a good handle on the fact that I only needed to do that once.
I was baptized at the age of ten, and personally I feel like that was the turning point in my faith. I wasn't being a christian because I thought I should be, I was deciding to be a follower of Jesus because I wanted to be. I had gone to christian school, so by that time I had a good handle on what I was doing and the significance of choosing to be a christian.
Maybe I had it easy, I have always been blessed by being immersed in a christian community. I have always had support every time I faltered in my walk with christ. I am lucky. If I didn't have my faith I think that I would be lost in the world. The strength that I receive from God and the christian community is the backbone of my entire life, and I can only hope that I can give back to that community and try to glorify God in everything that I do.
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You know, I totally agree with you in the sense that my testimony isn't the idealistic type like so many of our fellow christians, and alot of that has to do with growing up in a spiritually split home myself. Thanks for sharing.
I really like what you wrote, its almost similar to what I wrote; its interesting to find someone who has a familiar story to you..Nice.
i think it is really cool how you have a totally different story than most people. and i really like how you came to the belief of christianity now even though you had other influences
When I was a little girl i accepted Christ in to my heart a number of times too. I think it was because at that age I did not understand exactly what it meant. But I think its great that even with all the different influences you were able to find what you believe in for yourself.
I remember accepting God a lot as a kid too. I think that for me it was more fear than anything. I had been taught the right way, but I never felt that I was getting it quite right. . . so I made sure I was covered: by habitual reoccurences of the 'sinner's prayer.' Now it seems really funny to think about.
I like your style:) You write with a sense of candor in your tone, and I have to say, that's what initially drew me in. Like you, I can't even count on two hands the number of times I've been "re-saved;" I think it's a growing process we all have to come to face. I look forward to reading more of what you have to say...
I totally know what you mean about when you were little you "accepted Jesus into your heart" over and over, again and again. I did the same thing until I finally understood that it wasn't about a prayer, it was about a relationship and a lifestyle.
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