I honestly feel that I need to start off this blog by admitting that I do not have a direct line to God. He has never spoken to me in plain English and I can only imagine what it is like to hear his voice…but he definitely has not said anything to me.
I don’t mean for that to sound harsh, but this is just one of those topics that really has not come up in my Christian life. At the church that I attended when I was younger there was always a long pause at the end of worship and people would just say out loud what they believed God was saying to them. This sort of freaked me out, and to this day I could not tell you if they were for real or not. Anyway that wasn’t even the oddest part. During that same pause people would…I don’t know, I guess you would call it trying to speak in tongues. After they did that they would interpret whatever it was that they claim to just have uttered. In my opinion, that definitely was not for real.
So, maybe that’s why God does not have a direct line to me, I am too skeptical. I study the bible, I pray, I go to church…I mean I really do try to be a good Christian. I just don’t have that sort of personal relationship with God the way that other people claim to.
I should also make it clear that God does reveal his presence to me, but in much subtler was than a direct line. I remember many times praying for calmness and receiving that along with the comfort of knowing that God was with me. I have always felt that God watches over me and knows what’s best for me even better than I do. So I guess that that means that I really don’t need to be able to have conversations with Him in words because I already have the confidence that He is there and watching out for me. My God is a good God and He knows me well, and maybe he knows that just showing up in the middle of the night would scare me too much, I’m just not that person.
